shall i?

Shall I drown within misery?

Shall misery drown me within?

I strive and I strive

To cling, to be.

To run through sun lit mornings

To bathe upon dim moonlight

to see beyond old melancholic novels

to fight and fight and fight.

To originate and generate.

To drink and smoke, and walk the walk.

To talk the talk.

I dream and I hope.

And I slowly let such poisons sink

Beyond walls of skin and immune system

To think and think.

To slit and slip, and slither.

To dive and drive

And dramatically begin.

to wisely, insightfully see..

tragic essence of reality.

I am not born to empress

Not made to be put upon lists.

My name shall not be whispered

My words shall not be read

My melodies, inharmonious

My thoughts, misled.