melodrama.

how do I convey
my fear
my desire
my utter weakness
towards uncollectable
greatness
my microscopic reading
of biographies
full of jealousy
full of resentment.
men
and women
simply depicted
the purge inducing
collaboration of letters
"great"
I am laughable.
unapplaudable
un- controversial
counter-charming
the opposite
of a leader
the opposite
of greatness.
I am:
old
worn out
ugly thoughts
flickering
and gleaming
in the corner
of forgotten possibility.