to be, despite

usually I don't think of my self as a good lover

even saying 'good lover' makes me really self deprecate

i am not the tall, tanned wide eyed girl

everyone thought all the boys would like

i think almost everything we thought is

quite ridicules

thats not what a good lover is

As a self proclaimed 

possibly

good lover

all the music and all the books

i have never been a lover

i have never loved

 and i am pretty sure i have never been loved but i think

i think

being a good lover is not

having something that makes someone

absolutely

explode

but rather

being able

to contain