natural.

death is so appealing.
and i ma not sure if its a concept that i am attracted to
only i am sure of just how far i have gone
strayed
how far i am willing
and hopefully could
stray away
from all that is
proper


because
we forget
and goddamn is it easy
to forget
proper vs. right


i like life
i do
i like reading
and i like thinking
i love thinking
i like discovering
and
there is discovering in the even the most
heart burningly
overwhelmingly
entrapping
mundane things
so really there is something to like
in everything


but death
is a relief
that i cant seem
to shrug off


and there is always the known factor of
write what you know
i think i know
that i like death
and i like life
and i dont understand
why these
immensely natural thoughts
are so very globally
repulsive.