I want to write a book.

this maybe ridiculously  implied by the fact that I am an aspiring writer, but heres the explanation:

I write, yes I do, but I write short stories and poems. I want to write books that effect the reader the way a great book effects me, one with all the element I wish to read before I open a book, one with heart steering emotions, gripping characters, amazing details, and an -I dont want to close this book- ending.

I want to create  a whole world within 400 pages, more or less, cover to cover, a book that literally shifts you into a different land the moment you open it.

I never could though.

I find it intensely difficult to finish a short story.
I cannot create a world
I cannot convey feelings
I cannot do any of the above.

but I try, and I will keep on trying.